indyjosh

indyjosh @ 2006-06-18T20:35:00

2006-06-18T19:39:57Z

i i have some sort of manic depression / bipolar disorder. one minute ill be extaticly happy and jumping around and the next ill be as depressed as fuck and ill shout and argue and cry and talk shit.
im effected by the weather.; i cant stand winter.. i hate christmas .i always feel lonely when its cloudy but i love it when the suns out or the sky is blue.
i think i know why this is but i darnt really talk about it.

i dont really know who to speak to about this i dont even know why im writting it because i know theirs only like 4 people on my lj .
blah fuck ...

love

2006-03-07T15:54:02Z

i miss my girlfriend:(
and they have the freedom to go up to her when ever they want at any time of day and kiss her
and its hurting me
i want her back
and its not fair

as if uve read anything as disturbing as this before!

2006-02-08T19:37:51Z

count down to death!

as the ebola zaire virus works its way through the body, the host will suffer all or most of these symptoms.

day 1-6
- the head aches and the throat is sore.
- clots form in the bloodstream,slowing the blood to major organs
- red spots appear on the skin
- skin bubbles up into white blisters

day 7-10
- mouth, gums and salivery glands bleed. the lining of the tongue throat and windpipe slip in to lungs or are torn out while vomiting black blood.
- the testicles swell and turn black.in women the labia turns black and blue. pregnancies are aborted.
- liver turns yellow.cracks and rots.
- kidneys fail and blood becomes toxic with urine. the spleen turns hard and grows to the size of a baseball.

day 11-13
- eyeballs haemorrhage and fill up with blood. the eyes may weep blood.
- the heart softens and bleeds into itself.the chest cavity fills with blood.
- the lining of the gut is torn off and expelled through the rectum.
- in the last moments, the body is thrown in to a fit, limbs thrash wildly spraying infected blood

eeeeeik

2006-01-15T18:14:49Z

BROKE MY CAMERA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :( :( :(

it still takes photos but i cant see them on the screen. so i just have to take them and then see what they look like when i get home i guess!
crappy

indyjosh @ 2005-10-24T16:18:00

2005-10-24T15:21:18Z

were an 80's pop band

indyjosh @ 2005-10-24T13:38:00

2005-10-24T12:40:29Z

http://www.dreemmoods.com/cgi-bin/dreamforum/cutecast.pl?session=KSDuOnF8T5YOdAgmUxnf4hujYR&forum=3&thread=66858

read this.its crazy!!! and look at what people said to him

indyjosh @ 2005-10-04T22:03:00

2005-10-04T21:05:35Z

i like bowling but its really hard when im drunk. i like it at the ally where i go cos its dark and theres stars and things all glowing in the distance above the pins! makes me smile, as do the people who i go with, the girl who i love especially <3 .x

WANTING WAITING DEAD

2005-09-17T10:48:41Z

Thats the predicted outline of my life...

want kate, wait for ever. die alone xxx

indyjosh @ 2005-09-14T14:19:00

2005-09-14T13:31:44Z

can anyone think of anything i can do to

my dog to make it kind of personal??? and

i know he still needs eyes..oh and name

suggestions would be appreciated too

although im thinking about pootch :D

sarahs idea:D

:) xxx

indyjosh @ 2005-08-14T14:39:00

2005-08-14T13:42:54Z

Good Times , each one a different day.so at least we had 2 weeks worth of fucking awesome days kate.. we should of photographed more!becuase i know we could times those good days easily by like 100000000000000000000000000 or somthing i think.im bad at maths! and drunk

indyjosh @ 2005-08-13T10:42:00

2005-08-13T09:49:13Z

Well it seems life as i used to know it has ended

Ive been relieved of my possision as my girlfriends right hand man.

Ive been Dumped

everyone says the same things and i wish everyone apart from sarah beechy and chris would shut up

i cant be on my own.all i do is think about kate<3 and then i make some stupid effort to get her back that never seems to have any sort of impact on her cute little life away from me!

i think im going to end my application to uni and maybe pick it up again next year.i cant bare to be there when i have noone to come home to, noone to hold my hand. noone to kiss my cheek. i think i might go back to carpe..wonder if they bared me last night, i was a mess.

the words said so many times to kate -

I LOVE YOU

IM SORRY

BE WITH ME

erm

2005-07-31T09:18:58Z

Bloody hell.i was sick a bit last night.i was supposed to see a film but i ended up in a vodka bar.and i hadnt eaten all day mind! it was ouch wasnt it katie schofield. i was sick all over macdonalds though which is good hahaha. £35 pithcer. 2x6 shot sticks and one 12 shot stick. 2 pints tripple vodka and humbug tasteing water! uhhhh

Bloody hell maybe if this night hadnt of happened!!! kate might be with me<3